That kill feeling

Penasaran

Mereka bilang begitu menakutkan
Menjalar ke setiap detak dan degup
Meronta merintih dalam tegukan napas
Jangan dibawa mati—katanya
Bisa menghantui!
Digantung oleh segala ketidak pastian
Tidak menahu apakah putih atau hitam
Legendanya juga dapat membunuh
Mungkin karena rasa sudah tergerogoti
Terlalu lama hingga tanpa sadar tak bersisa
Penasaran, masih yakin bisa tahan dengannya?

Another poem ga penting..

Tanda Tanya

Diam-diam harapan itu selalu ada
Tidak meninggi tak juga merendah
Ada diantara logika dan rasa
Terlarut dalam amarah dan resah
Berselimutkan rindu dan sendu yang menua
Berlari bersama waktu tak kenal lelah
Mengetuk pintu berpalang tanda tanya
Kosong, tidak berguna, teriak mereka
Tapi percuma,
Kau tahu dia bersembunyi disana
Di pojok redup ringkuh dan mengaduh
Bertanda tanyakan keberadaannya sendiri
Siluet rapuh dalam remang
Dengan wajah yang samar membuat tanda tanya gamang

by: Regita F.

What's the latest?

So where have I been?

.....busy.

Okay seriously guys, I really been busy or... most likely didn't have any ideas to come up with.

So here I am finally dare to  make a comeback. Ha. Also sorry because I did promise to my self to make some reviews on some dramas, but I didn't make it. Or maybe I will but sue me, I don't know when. *sigh*

The point as for this post is, what actually makes me back sitting in front of screen and trying so hard to write something? Because I have sooooooooooooooo many things inside my head to throw it up on this dusty blog. Believe me, I wanted to write since forever but.. as usual the barrier just too hard to get ruined.

Come on, enough with the introduction.

I know you're all curious much to know about how my life is going recently.

WTF, SO NO ONE IS ASKING? NO CURIOSITY HERE?

Ha. Just blame me and my nobody-ness thing.

Well, the thing is, gue sekarang anak kuliahan. Kuliah, bukan sekolah, pake baju bebas, bukan seragam. (isn't it clear? k, forget it). Rasanya? yaa gimana ya, berhubung gue kuliah dengan program studi yang mana adalah mata pelajaran favorit gue waktu sekolah dulu, ya jadinya berasa lagi les aja gitu diluar. Ya ga gitu juga sih.

Sebenernya gue berasa gabut, soalnya sks di prog. studi gue ini paling sedikit diantara jurusan lain se-fakultas. Ada satu hari gue masuk cuma 2 jam buat satu matkul, jam 3 sore pula. Dan berhubung gue anak paralel, gue cuma kedapetan satu hari doang yang memaksakan gue untuk dateng kelas paling pagi. Lainnya? Paling after lunch time baru mulai. So so so much for take a nap. Alhasil? Nguap aja deh terus. Zzz

Apakah kuliah itu menyenangkan?

Okay most high school students usually say, ‘ARGH gue pengen cepet-cepet kuliah deh, capek SMA capek bangun pagi, capek belajar ini itu’ and so on. And then people in university will say, ‘gilaaaaaa kangen SMA banget brohh, kangen jam kosong, kangen hang out bareng temen-temen, pengen banget balik ke jaman SMA nih. Huhu —and blah blah blah.

For me, some of them are true and some of them are not. I don’t really want to come to my high school era back just like the others, oh talking about the past here—incase you know about ‘it’. I do enjoy my campus life now.. It’s fun indeed, minus all the tasks including its deadline and quizzes.

Singkatnya?

Kuliah bisa menjadi menyenangkan ketika lo datang kelas, menghabiskan beberapa jam mendengarkan dosen, absen, terus keluar deh.

Temen-temen baru gimana? Bisa adaptasi?

            Oops, talking about people here, must be careful don’t we? Lol jk.

            Yaaa Alhamdulillah sampai ketika tulisan ini dibuat tidak ada masalah yang benar-benar bisa membuat gue depresi seperti asfdfghjkl. If I may say, I can adopt and blended well with the new people around me. ‘tho I must admit that at the beginning I was afraid I’d have a hard time to adjust with the new surrounding. Look at me rite now! Okay, maybe I’m not that great as a person, but I really am surprised of how far I’ve learnt from the past to get through people and to not to afraid of them. Err mungkin ga yang totally change gitu yaaa. I still am trying to keep learn and learn from people, from everything new, I always am. Improve my self and be a better person each day is the most important thing. Nah, including being my own self. This part is a bit tough to be honest.

            Speaking about people…. I met a lot of new buddies a.k.a friends here. They’re all great! They gave me this motivation of growing myself to be better and better, and I hope I can keep seeing things in positive way. Another thing is… they are educated (geez of course they are!) and this is the reason why their minds open to the things around them. Oke, kok gue kesannya bisa dengan gampangnya generalised these new people ya? Yeah, some of them (at least people who close to me) are like that. They’re not the typical person who judge people easily or mind other people business or talking nonsense about this and that (are we talking about someone here? Lol. Just ignore this). I just think they know what important to concerned and what not—they have respect, in short. We are talking about freedom right? ..or maybe maturity. Oh God, I really really hope what I am talking about right now will never changed.

           

Bukannya mahasiswa itu terkenal individualis ya?

           

Maybe yes, maybe no? Idk.

            Just take a look what I have written above. However, maturity gives us impact on our behavior. Oh, once more I should have mentioned it: responsibility. This leads us to make our priority, to share or to keep. Berhubung gue statusnya masih maba, jadi gue pribadi sih belum ngeliat yang ‘individualis’ ini. Tapi ya bukan berarti ga ada loh. Bibit kayak gitu sih, bisa dibilang udah ada. We’re all always trying to share, we are. In fact, we just have our respect, literally. Are we annoyed? Hmm.. Menurut lo? K, kidding. Gue biasa aja kok (kayaknya). Not paying attention too much sih, lately. As long as I have a good relationship among them is enough.

            Too boring to read this post?

            Ugh, no one force you to read anyway…

            By the way, ada kata-kata ga penting sebagai penutup di penghujung postingan kali ini:

            YEP! THANK GOD I FINALLY HAVE NEW FANDOM ESP NEW PAIRING AFTER TOO LONG DRAGGED WITH SCOROSE IN HARRY POTTER FANDOM!!!! Ooops, not that I’ve forgot and left my eternal fandom ever—Harry Potter—kok. Lagian, ga ada yang bisa menggantikan Scorose. This pairing is the best—for Merlin’s sake!!! Hahahah I just feel thankful that at least I can get over with the post hangover of Harry Potter. Not at all sih. I’m a bit late entered this fandom, soalnya gue masuk pas buku kedua dari terakhir rilis. Which means, I only have a year await for the last book. Nah. Kalo filmnya apa kabar? Unfortunately, the film is a total FAIL!! Both of them. (we’re talking about film from the book adaption yah) Payah. Parah. Yea yea yea, thanks to the hawt Logan Lerman I still can endure my guts to watch it for the sake of the actor. -_-

            Sooooo let me introduce my new giggle: PERCABETH.

            As in, Percy Jackson-Annabeth Chase.

  

They're just too cute to resist! I can't help it!!! >.<

and whenever Percy get to his romantic side,

I just want to roll my self on the floor.

(talk about fangirling things here, oh God)

THIS BOOK,

IS TOO MUCH FOR PERCABETH.

/cries over/

            See ya next post!

            Regards,

            (signed by the geeky-but-cool and trying-to-be-cheerful person, G.I.T.A)

            P.s. I hope my words don’t harm you and makes you offended. Those are all my purity, innocence, and no offense. xoxo