Why does this thing happen? Why? I never ever
imagine this thing happened to me, even just once.
And the
answer is: Because I did mistake to someone. I did the same thing as people do
to me now. Because I believe what people say about this someone. I truly
believe what they say before I actually know this someone’s true personality.
Am I
sorry? Yes, I am.
Did I
regret? No, I didn’t.
Why?
Because this is what I learned for my whole life. Because if this thing never
happened to me, I’d probably never know how it feels being ‘this someone’. I
also would never know how hard karma does.
And
here are the most frequently ask question from somepeople to me:
Do you
know that lots people talk about you? Don’t you know what your ‘friends’ are
talk about behind your back? Do you really this clueless/insensitive about your
surrounding? Etc.
My
answer: I’m more sensitive than you ever expected. I already knew
every-single-thing. From the beginning. I even know what you’re trying to talk
when it goes to this. I knew, after all this time.
Then,
why you keep remain silent, even until now?
Because
I don’t care. I wouldn’t. I won’t. Also, I don’t want to make things gone far
and worse. And besides, what can I do? Do I have to shout people out to make
them stop talking sh*tthings about me? Or hoping their mercy to forgive all the
things I’ve did? Huh? What have I did? Make them unpleasant? Then, I truly am
sorry.
Are those
things that they say about you is true?
What? Did
they say I’m totally freak? Strange? Like a geek or nerd? Or worse, crazy? Ah..
How about this, if I said ‘No, I’m not like that.’ would you believe or instead
you call me a liar?
Don’t
you angry with them? They’ve pissed you off and you know that.
No, I’m
not. 100% sure I don’t have any grudge, and I don’t want to.
Why?
Because
people talk. They deserve to talk about everything even everyone. That’s what
we’re doing everyday, don’t we? Do you think I’m innocent from talk everyone
up? Try to remember this: “People who admit that they never talking about
someone behind their back, then these people are truly the most hypocrite person
ever.”
So, you
don’t have any big deals with everything?
Who
says? It’s a TRULY BIG deal with somepeople who pitying me with their mercy and
start to act like they care, but actually they aren’t. If so, why are these
people talking nonsense before they ask me the point of their question? They
don’t need. Isn’t it tiring overtones someone just to make them speak up? Well,
that’s awfully hurted. I told you, you can just shout out and bring everything
up in front of me without mention it once before. I don’t need your mercy, I
truthfully loathe it. Because I just accept sincerity, and besides I know very
well the difference between them. That’s so obvious for me to differentiate
which one who sincerly sincere, and which one who take a look at me with their
- desperately – pity eyes.
One
more thing. I’m what I am. This is me being my own self. That’s why I don’t
give everyone notice about what the f*ck their mocks. I also am what they call
unique, because I’m the different one. Should I make a list what makes me ‘this
different’?
I’m not
gonna change my self for this loving people. If I have to, I’d make it for
my own’s sake! Didn't you remember? Did I tell you that I'm Luna Lovegood's cousin?
Once
again, thank you for reading. Forgive me for any mistakes. This is, my first
rant post in this blog. Please, may understand. xo
Sincerly,
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